This is Tough

I have control issues. I want control of everything. Even as I write this, a friend of mine is having difficulty logging into the church system, and I decided that I could defeat the registration better than she could. I have problems. I'm learning in some pretty face-smashing ways that God is the only one who should have control. I mean... he already does. Just another area where I need to learn how to die. Dying... freaking sucks... So much harder than I ever thought it would be. But there's something so sweet about it.